Journal #4

 Life lately has been a whirlwind of work, school, friends, family, and faith. Trying to balance everything feels near impossible, but it’s almost fun. Like I’m juggling and trying to figure out what ball I’ll drop next. That’s a terrible analogy, but you understand what I’m getting at. It’s only a matter of time before I can’t keep it all in check. 

Here’s how my typical day goes: My body won’t let me sleep past 6:30, so that’s when I get up. I get ready for my day, say a quick Rosary on my way to school, grab coffee and go to class. Draw, read, take notes, write. Class is over and straight to work. Work until 6, then either go home and do schoolwork or see a friend. I stay up until about 11:30, sleep, and repeat. Again. And again. And again. 

I’m tired by the way. I wish I had more time to do things I enjoy doing. Most of my time goes to work or class, not leaving much leftover for assignments, art, or literature. And this is how it will most likely be for the rest of my life. It’s depressing when you really start to think about it. Almost like our only purpose in life is to work. My whole life up until this point has been preparing me for a career, and when I graduate my whole life will be about the career I choose. I do hope it won’t be. I hope I find love, (updates on that later by the way) see the world, have a family, and live a life full of God. That is the ultimate goal.

-Ava <3